Thinking Of You...

There are always times when we catch ourselves consumed by the thought of another. We think of that person, if not all the time, then pretty damn close to it. We then try to convince ourselves that we’re not thinking about them at all… really and truly… this quote explains it all; “maybe if you can’t somebody out of your head, they’re supposed to be there.”

 

Distance makes the heart grow fonder

Time makes the heart go weak

I believe in none of this crap

I am sooo glad to have you gone

But wait!

Don’t over react

I lo- like you

I do

My emotions for you run deeper

Than the deepest of seas

And please, know that I want

Terribly for you and i to be come one

Under the Holy Spirit, Father and Son

I love you

But boy do you consume my mind

Every minute

Every second

Every got damned time

I try and do my math

All I can think about is you

When I walk to class

It’s you

I’m wondering,

Hey if I see him what will I do

When I get dress in the morning

Don’t get it twisted,

I get cute for me,

But I get a little bit more sexy for you

Put on a little extra lip gloss

Wear those tighter jeans

Keep my hair down

‘Cause you like it that way

I must say

I think

I think

About you

Too damn much

Like when I’m brushing my teeth

I brush extra long

‘Cause I’m thinking about

When I’m a sing you

Your first song

And it’s getting ridiculous

I thinking of you when I shower

But don’t get excited

It ain’t like that, nope

I’m just thinking that I smell like you

So then I use a little bit more soap

When I go to the bathroom

Sooo yea

I don’t think about you then

But right when I get out

I do

When I’m eating

I think of you

When I go to the gym…

Okay fine, so I don’t go to the gym

But understand if I did

I’d be thinking of you

Then when I sleep I dream of you

I wake up smiling

Because I can’t wait to see you…

Okay so I lied

You’re not here

And I still can’t get you off my mind

Babe, I absolutely hate it that you’re gone

So hurry home

So you can hold me as I sleep

And think of you

All

Night

Long

I Need A Guy

They say I need a guy to match my fly

I say I need a guy who can read my eyes, read my soul

Whose spirit fills mine and makes me whole

Whose hands are twice the size of mine,

Yet  when cupped together, like a puzzle fit just fine

 

They say I need a guy to match my fly

I say I need a guy whose lips speak the words that my tongue wants to say

A guy to whom I never say goodbye

And whose face I don’t mind seeing everyday

When he lets go his embraces still lingers on

His hugs hum me a melody, his kiss, sings a song

 

They say I need a guy to match my fly

I say I need one that when I breathe him, I get high

I need him

‘Cause he’s the love of my life

no explanation... just a poem...

peaceeee

WHY ARE A LOT OF RELATIONSHIPS FAILURES??

... and by failure, i mean that the "original title" given to the said relationship does not workout.

For me, I think that there are four reasons why relationships (including friendship, romantic relationships, and relative-ships) don't work out

disclaimer:: for the sake of not have much confusion.. the examples will be in the sense of a romantic relationship

EXPECTATIONS -- a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future

WORK -- activity involving mental or physical effort done in order to achieve a purpose or result

TRUST -- firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something

COMMUNICATION -- the successful conveying or sharing of ideas and feelings

expectations::

People often go into relationships with a lot of expectations. I mean it would be stupid and naive to not have any expectations, because then you would have absolutely no standards and that's just NAHT smart. BUTT (and yes I did spell it with two t's). It is even more stupid and more naive to think the each and every one of the expectation that you hold your partner to will be fulfilled to your degree.

The first mistake that is made with expectations is that people often made too many, and unreasonable expectations for the significant other to fulfill. For example:: say a really rich girl got with a guy who grew up in the projects taking care of his family because his daddy wasn't around. Now the girl goes into the relationship with the ideals of a man who is upscale, high-class, waits on her hand and foot, likes to spend money in order to have fun. For the girl to think the the guy could fulfill ALL of these expectations is absurd.

The second mistake that people make is not only do people go into relationship with ridiculous amount of expectations, but they actually think that allllllll the expectations will be satisfied. Its like getting a cat and then one day asking it to bark. Is it gonna happen?... NEGATIVE

work::

it is crazy the amount of work put in when two people are courting or even just trying to get each other's attention. I guy will go to great lengths in order to "bag" a girl. And a girl will call in all her "man-terpretation powers" in order to get a guy. BUT WHY when the two finally get together does this crazy work ethic they BOTH had go out the window... for BOTH of them.. It is like as soon as the relationship begins people think that the work is over.. WRONG.. this is were people fail.. and where relationships do to... you must work to keep a relationship going. You can't bail at the first sight of trouble...

trust::

this should be a NO BRAINER.. but apparently it's not... for a relationship to work both parties must trust each other fully. that's it.. You have to be able to trust you partner with you body, your feelings, your secrets, your credit card, you hear, your mind, you EVERYTHING. I can write a novel on how important trust is... but I won't. But I feel like the most successful relationship have come about becuase both people trusted each other... and if it was not full trust, then it was the same level and understanding of trust. Ne-Yo says "I believe that love and trust are one in the same. I don't think you can truly love somebody unless you trust them. That blind trust, that beyond a shadow of a doubt, no matter what this person sayin', that person sayin', you believe your man"

commincation::

again, I feel as though this should be a no brainer but it has found it's way on my list... You gotta talk. You have to let the other person know how you feel, what you want, what you need. Tell them everything, as they should to you. Not only talk about emotions and such, but talk about the Red Sox or Obama or something... Conversation builds friendship. Friendship should be the base of the relationship. You have to know the person your in a relationship with. Communication is the grounds for all the other things like expectations, work, and trust. If the communication is set in a relationship then it is soo much easier for both people to understand the EXPECTATIONS of each other, to realize what the other person wants and what WORK needs to be done to achieve that. And when two people talk about.. everything.. then trust is naturally established amongst them, and can be nurtured into the trust needed for a healthy successful relationship.

that's all folks

peaceee

P.S... sometimes relationships don't work because we're scared...

quotee : "So scared of the heartbreak. So scared of makin' mistakes. I keep runnin', when all I really need is you" - Jesse McCartney

why they DON'T work

WHY ARE A LOT OF RELATIONSHIPS FAILURES??

... and by failure, i mean that the "original title" given to the said relationship does not workout.

For me, I think that there are four reasons why relationships (including friendship, romantic relationships, and relative-ships) don't work out

disclaimer:: for the sake of not have much confusion.. the examples will be in the sense of a romantic relationship

EXPECTATIONS -- a strong belief that something will happen or be the case in the future

WORK -- activity involving mental or physical effort done in order to achieve a purpose or result

TRUST -- firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something

COMMUNICATION -- the successful conveying or sharing of ideas and feelings

expectations::

People often go into relationships with a lot of expectations. I mean it would be stupid and naive to not have any expectations, because then you would have absolutely no standards and that's just NAHT smart. BUTT (and yes I did spell it with two t's). It is even more stupid and more naive to think the each and every one of the expectation that you hold your partner to will be fulfilled to your degree.

The first mistake that is made with expectations is that people often made too many, and unreasonable expectations for the significant other to fulfill. For example:: say a really rich girl got with a guy who grew up in the projects taking care of his family because his daddy wasn't around. Now the girl goes into the relationship with the ideals of a man who is upscale, high-class, waits on her hand and foot, likes to spend money in order to have fun. For the girl to think the the guy could fulfill ALL of these expectations is absurd. 

The second mistake that people make is not only do people go into relationship with ridiculous amount of  expectations, but they actually think that allllllll the expectations will be satisfied. Its like getting a cat and then one day asking it to bark. Is it gonna happen?... NEGATIVE

work::

it is crazy the amount of work put in when two people are courting or even just trying to get each other's attention. I guy will go to great lengths in order to "bag" a girl. And a girl will call in all her "man-terpretation powers" in order to get a guy. BUT WHY when the two finally get together does this crazy work ethic they BOTH had go out the window... for BOTH of them.. It is like as soon as the relationship begins people think that the work is over.. WRONG.. this is were people fail.. and where relationships do to... you must work to keep a relationship going. You can't bail at the first sight of trouble...

trust::

this should be a NO BRAINER.. but apparently it's not... for a relationship to work both parties must trust each other fully. that's it.. You have to be able to trust you partner with you body, your feelings, your secrets, your credit card, you hear, your mind, you EVERYTHING. I can write a novel on how important trust is... but I won't. But I feel like the most successful relationship have come about becuase both people trusted each other... and if it was not full trust, then it was the same level and understanding of trust. Ne-Yo says "I believe that love and trust are one in the same. I don't think you can truly love somebody unless you trust them. That blind trust, that beyond a shadow of a doubt, no matter what this person sayin', that person sayin', you believe your man"

commincation::

again, I feel as though this should be a no brainer but it has found it's way on my list... You gotta talk. You have to let the other person know how you feel, what you want, what you need. Tell them everything, as they should to you. Not only talk about emotions and such, but talk about the Red Sox or Obama or something... Conversation builds friendship. Friendship should be the base of the relationship. You have to know the person your in a relationship with. Communication is the grounds for all the other things like expectations, work, and trust. If the communication is set in a relationship then it is soo much easier for both people to understand the EXPECTATIONS of each other, to realize what the other person wants and what WORK needs to be done to achieve that. And when two people talk about.. everything.. then trust is naturally established amongst them, and can be nurtured into the trust needed for a healthy successful relationship.

that's all folks

peaceee

P.S... sometimes relationships don't work because we're scared...

quotee :  "So scared of the heartbreak. So scared of makin' mistakes. I keep runnin', when all I really need is you" - Jesse McCartney

ROCK my world

SOOOO i wrote this poem because i was in a little situation where... i didn't get what... or shall i so WHO i wanted :-) hehehe

Ever wonder why

The stars, the moon, and the sun

Never align

The earth never tilts

And the universe never spins your way?

I do.

You see,

He love her and he likes me

And she likes him and I like he

Can’t you see how it

Just

Don’t

Work?

I’ve done what I’ve been asked

I’m an educated girl with poise and an ass

Ha! I mean poise and class

I got poise and class

And by poise and class I mean

I just don’t let anyone tap that ass

Yet she.

She’s a breezy from the easy

Hood rat for sheezy

No class

AND she puts out that ass

But she wins

And I,

I’m here, empty-handed

The universe, you see

Never goes my way

Not last year

Not tomorrow

And def not today

The universe and I

We constantly fight

I pull and I push

It hits and it shoves

Telling me

“You good girls, ha, you never end above.”

So sit here I

Angry lost sad

Broken bruised tired and mad

And waiting

Waiting for the universe

To flip upside down and inside out

Turn around and jump and shout

Relieve me of my “happiness” drought

And ROCK MY WORLD!

WHY?

Why do we continue to choose to confuse our minds and hearts with the unfit and unwell?

Why do we, instead of settling in healthy relationships, choose to situate ourselves in relationships that are harmful to our bodies, minds, and souls?

Why do we subjugate our selves to such abuse?

Why do we hate?

Why do we fear?

Why do we love?

Why do we love perfectly another but despise the beauty that is ourselves?

Why do we look at the television in awe but in the mirror with pain?

Why do guard our hearts so heavily with the artillery of attitudes, but melt at the simple slick smooth talk of a dude.

Why do we cry?

Why do we laugh?

Why do we smile?

Why do we constantly talk of our praised independence yet yearn for the love and partnership of a man?

Why is she our enemy one-minute and then our best friend the next?

Why can the same lips that smile so beautifully, turn and speak such ugly and harmful untruths of another.

Why do we let others determine the factors that truly make us happy?

Why do we continue to choose to confuse our minds and hearts with the unfit and the unwell?

Why do we subjugate our selves to such abuse?

Why do we hate?

Why do we love?

Why?

UMMMM soooo yea... just sitting at my computer... and justt... alll of this came out... 

peaceeee

quote: sryyy i've been MIA. I've been sick and trying get settled with school and everything..

SEE YOUU SOON :-)

FOCUS

 

Writing, journals, stories, poems,

Painting, drawing, coloring, learning,

Piano, clarinet, acting, singing,

Talking, reading, books, novels,

The Bible, school, grades, shopping,

Music, football, field hockey, food,

Running, basketball, gymnastics, Sox,

TV, boys, dance, tap, jazz, ballet, and hip-hop?

No?

 

God, Life, Love, and Happiness.

 

In the end isn’t that all that really matters?

Because

Everyday I’m trying something new

In my mind I’m perplexed, bamboozled, straight up confused

Can’t seem to figure out what exactly I want to do.

 

What will make me happy? What do I love? What’s my passion?

 

I’m forever and consistently for never being consistent with

Anything I do,

I’m living life in a constant ADHD

Why. Does. Life. Hate. Me.

It’s. Making. Me. Hate. Me.

‘Cause I just can’t focus.

 

I can’t focus and all I want to do is be happy.

I’m told to try new things to find my passion,

True happiness.

And I did try,

I did.

And I found a momentary joy

A momentary high

Living on cloud nine

Ecstasy and bliss

I’d be loving it.

 

But, a high only last for so long.

Then I’m back here.

Trying something new

Again.

For now, forever, and for always

I’ll be doing this

 

Focus.

Is this important?

Should I focus on this and that?

Am I wasting my time focusing on the unimportant?

When I should just be focusing on,

God, Life, Love, and Happiness

 

What’s my passion?

I wish I could tell you.

Because I’d tell you if I knew.

 

I’ll tell you this though,

Stop living your life in this constant

Delirious delusion and illusion of life,

 

And focus.

 

Ummmm... some one asked me what my passion was... this is the result of that question..

peaceee

qoute it uppp:  "live for today.. laugh often... love always"