Thursday, November 27, 2008

HaPpY ThAnKsGiViNg!!!

Happy thanksgiving everyone!!!

No blog here
Just saying that i hope all of you have a happy thanksgiving and remind you to take the time to let the people that you love and that you're thankful for know...
AND that God loves you and he gave you the breathe of air that you just breathed SO be thankful for him too!

Peaceee




Thursday, November 20, 2008

Let's talk about SEX babyyy: The double standard.

LET'S TALK ABOUT SEX BABYYY!!!
The double standard:

Okay so earlier this week i was talking with a group of girls about... SEX.. yea i said it sex lol. so there was a topic that was reoccurring every time someone spoke. THE DOUBLE STANDARD. okay okay we all know what it is. Girls tend to get a bad reputation for doing the same thing a guy does while he gets a good reputation. what is socially excepted for men is looked down upon and scolded for women. and for the topic of sex in particular; women are sluts, whores, sleazes, smuts, hoes, etc.. (the list can go on and on) for loving and having a lot of sex with multiple partners all the while men are Gs, players, and such for doing the same exact thing....

BANANAS!!!????

yes its bananas..

why has our culture (as a human race) adopted this double standard... i mean its not like its a new philosophy.. the double standard has been around since the olden days nahmean? lol
but really we got to thinking and we realize that we still are consistent with this double standard because we have brought and carried it for those in the past... iight bet. BUT why, ten thousand billion years ago, did the male ameba decided that if he ate the other ameba he was a cool kid while if a female ameba did the same, she was a loser? .. bad example? lol okay. why was this double standard developed in the first place...

i think someone came up with a very good argument.. its not my own thought.. but it made me think... and therefore i will discuss it :-)

okay the idea is... the reason why we have this double standard, why we criticize women more than we do men when it comes to sexual relations is... (okay this might sound weird or get graphic but oh well )... women are being entered rather than doing the entering, as men do.

during sex a woman is allowing (unless its rape) a man to intrude and invade and take something from here. although men may THINK they have the power... they don't. it is the woman who has allow a man to enter her (again that is unless its rape).

its like, when a woman who has multiple partners instead of saying this "i have had sex with 20 men" she says "i have allowed 20 men to intrude and invade my personally space, enter me, and take something from me that he would not have without my approval."

its like the woman suddenly becomes a pushover. allowing an intrusion of her personal. soo... is pushover synonymous with the word hoe?... i don't know.

people see it as a bad thing for a female to have sex with a lot of people because it is therefore saying that this particular female who is having sex with many men is willingly being "intruded upon".. while people don't see it that bad for men because it mean they are simply doing the invading...

Sex for a female is so much more internal than it is for a male, for whom is is primarily external...

i don't know.. i'm horrible at explaining my thoughts... lemme know what you thinkk

btw... this is a random video on youtube kinda about the double standard.. watch. enjoy. and even laugh.. maybe..


peaceee

quote of the day is....
im in psychology class right now and my teach just said this "Female have 'penis envy' and the hate their mother's becuase it is the mother's fault that they do not have a penis..."
yup...... the intro to psych as a social science for ya!

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

who do you LOVE? are you for SURE?

it funny how i found my self looking back at past relationship and reLIKEnship and i realized a lot of the times that i was attracted too these guys and entered into these relationships for all the wrong reasons
I'm realizing now that many people do it tooo... getting into a relationship for convenience and not actual feelings..
And by convenience I mean a lot of people are getting into relationships because its convenient... because they're lonely and need someone to talk to, because they've never been single, because they're trying to fill a void...
for example.. I started to like this one guy for ALL the wrong reasons... it was bored. and everyone around me was in a relationship and i envied their happiness. i wanted it. and i figured, "get into a relationship and everything will be good." So i began to fall for the first guys that i even remotely found semi-attractive and kinda liked, just in a friendship way. I found myself headed into a relationship with someone who i did not really like... i just liked the idea of having someone... in the end the relationship did not work... i put myself through a lot of emotional turmoil for a man, that i knew from the very beginning, was not the man for me...
don't get me wrong.. not all relationship that begin for the wrong reasons end horribly. i've know of relationships that have lasted and the two people found a way to love and like each other.

but really though... why are we putting ourselves through all of this... i understad man and woman are to be together.. God made Adam and saw that he needed Eve.. God instructed Noah to put two of every kind of animal on his boat... Its understandable that humans are meant to be in pairs... man and woman... yes that's comprehendible, but what i do not understand is why is it that we as humans NEED to be in relationships. and i'm just as guilty as any other. I begin to fall for people just for convenience...

So its getting cold outside... and you know what that means... CUDDLE BUDDIES!! everyone is linking up and one by one your friends start to disappear... they never come out, why? because they're tooo busy cuddling. So here i am cuddle-buddy-less and crushing on and liking guys just because i want one... So how do i know my reasons for liking a guy? I don't know... help me out? I feel that I would just have to let my feelings play out, but thats all at the cost of my emotions.... what do I do? What would you do?

I don't know... im just saying.. we "fall in love" a lot... but are we sure? and is it really love?


food for thoughtttt


peaceee


"who do you loveee are you for sureeee?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Back AGAIN!

woot. woot.
ive been gone for a minute now im back with some new ish :-)

my new crack = Ill-Literacy and Invisible Ink
don't know who they are?
well find out!! 

Ill-literacy is on tour right now so find their lastest show in a town near you!
Invisible Ink is based in boston but they too travel around so find them.
both of these groups are great. both a combination of poetic, musical and theatrical performance.
so you should go out and see.. BOTH
i mean i would sit here a talk about everything that happened and how i felt and post vids and stuff... but iono i feel like experiencing their show is a journey you have to have on your own (or with the person your sitting with ... woot woot Jaz! <-- peep el blog)
haha but really though, check them out. they're worth it and have A LOT to say.
ps. if your like a function coordinator or sumthin.... book them... then invite me to your event :-)


NEWHOOO i was reading some information about George Watsky from the group Invisible Ink and he is a pretty accomplished guy.
one thing that i was particularly amazed/jealous of is the fact the he was on Russel Simmons' Def Poetry Jam
okay ever since i knew this def poetry jam exisited (pretty long time ago) i wanted to be in it. I wanted to go on stage and make people laugh, make people cry, and make people think...
yea yea i know.. "you can do that anywhere"
"true lie" <-- invisible ink put me onnn! haha
why is it a true lie?
Because its the truth that i can go on stage and perform anywhere... but i don't think it will ever feel like it would on the def poetry jam stage..
see for me, def poetry jam is a very big milestone. i feel that being on there would make me an accomplished writer. 
As many people who write, i'm really hard on myself. I've been published and stuff but to me that still doesn't mean my stuff is good... if and when im on Def Poetry Jam... i'll know that my stuff is good..
so how do i get there... and do i really want to get there?

welll i guesss i gotta get off my shy tip and perform... i mean there are plenty of spoken word shows, open mics, poetry slams and such around that i have no excuse...
even if i never get to be on Def poetry jam... i miss the stage... i miss the feeling i get when i perform. the high i receive from the attentiveness, applause, and the words that flow out from my heart. I miss it...

SO! ima step my game up.. and do what i gotta do...

bumpin and grinding and loud pointless degrading music gets old...
i'm ready to go to jazz clubs, and smooth talk the man sitting next to me with his acoustic type soul... im ready for a change.. And maybe along the way i can conjure up the courage to perform... and do what makes me happy.
wanna join?

peaceee

quote quote quote it up "Success is not the key to happiness. happiness is the key to success. If you love what you are doing, you will be successful."        -Albert Schweitzer


I wanna be a successful (happy) poet/successful spoken word artist :-)

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

woww

is at a lost for words... still amazed at the history she witnessed today... can't even blog about it right now... maybe laterr... or maybe never... i don't know if i'll be able to communicate in comprehendible words what i feel right now...


peaceee

Got PE?

lol "Got PE?"... i sure do!! i walked .8miles to go vote today!!
im sooo darn proud of myself yessirey!
I walked with a friend. Walk wasn't too bad considering we were about to make history(vote in a very historic presidential race, and it was our first times voting ever)
So we walk to this building.. Ward School. Ward 7 Precinct 3
Walk down a flight of steps and turn into the place we would be voting...
It looked like it was straight out of a movie.. really though... like old school OLD SCHOOL gymatorium. like it was as big as two BC quad-dorms. wood and painted red. floors with numbers around it. ropes on the ceiling looking like they were ready for ppl to climb them... honestly i never had to climb a single rope in my Phys-Ed career, i thought it was only in movies... but apparently ppl do this in real life..
newhooo i walk in tell them my address and get my ballot...
did my thing (which took awhile bcuz i was still unsure... but i made a decision none the less) and passed in my ballot to this electric-ballot-eater thing.
then i just stood there and took it all in
this was my first time voting EVER... this only happens once in a life time (it being the first time). it was a feeling that i can't really explain... i was proud, overwhelmed, happy, sad, just everything...
i mean even if the popular vote doesn't end up getting counted and it's only the electoral college and/or congress... it still felt good to vote... it was like i had a say in the way my life was being handled...

newhoo i voted :-)

Facebook voter count now: 2899528 + 1(ME!)


peaceee

"bad officials are elected by good citizens who do not vote" -- Andrew Lack
GET OUT AND VOTE.. 4hrs left mah dudeee


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I think today will be a good day

MY dayyy : November 4th, 2008
A day when history shall be made...

Sooo today is looking on the bright side. I woke up early and just laid in bed, prayed and relaxed. Got up did the morning routine. On my way to class saw that guy who makes me smile. I decided to take beacon street to my class in Merkert instead of going through the dustbowl So I had my quite time... no one around to talk to... just time to reflect and think. newhoooo so im walking.. and its a good time. some runners rudely pass and bump into me.. but it doesn't bother me.. all of a sudden I hear background music in my head... weird right? WRONG lol it was serene and calming... but wait the music wasn't it my head at all... birds? nope, they're all gone cuz of the coldness right.. or at least not happy enough to sing... soo I turned to my right and saw this guy dressed for work in a suit and all playing the flute in his yard!!! okay, I don't know about you, but i have never in my life seen or even heard of something like that.. he was like playing the soundtrack to my life hahaha. it was really pretty too. Newhoo i thought it was great. Got to class on time.. actually i was early. 2nd one there. :-) Chem lab went surprisingly fast. its supposed to be 9am to 12pm and i got out at 1030am :-) yayyyyyyy lol and while im leaving my TA tells me my lab performance grade is a 4 out of 4 yippeeeey! things r going good. Then i got some free ben&jerrys ice cream yummmy... go vote!!! and so i go to eat lunch and my food is nasttyyy but, hey!, doesn't bother me none. alsooo i find out that this girl that i thought didn't like me as a person actually does... or maybe she's a really good actor. lol oh well.. Then i got a text messege from my best-guy-friend whom i haven't spoken to in FOREVER telling me that everything was okay and that he missed me... 
today seems like its going to be a good day
:-)

btw... facebook's voter counter is at 1,653,273.... i loveeee it!!! go votee!!!

peaceee



quote it uppp!
"Just waking up in the morning, gotta thank God, I don't know, but today seems kinda odd." -- Ice Cube


GO VOTE

GO VOTEEEE
NOW
ONE VOTE CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE
:-)


newhooo bbl  got class in like... T minus 11 minutes :-)

peaceee